Of Courage, Stealth, Balance, and above all, Happiness.
The past week has been really taxing mentally, but we can always find something to be grateful for, right? One of our greatest world leaders, Dumbledore, once said, "Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light." (Any Harry Potter fans??) As written in a previous post, I'm a skeptic, but I'm also a seeker (yes, pun intended).
I believe there is hidden knowledge in nature, and I'm on a journey to further my practice of Present Moment Awareness. Tiger Eye: Of Courage, Stealth, Balance, and above all - Happiness. What does it mean to you?
About six months ago, I moved to China and worked ridiculously hard to start Gem and Silver. What's the inspiration? Present Moment Awareness. I grew up a lonely kid, making up fairytales and fantasies, and eventually turning sadness into aggression, wondering why people didn't accept my presence (or so I thought). I've lived in the past and in the future, but never the present, and in this, make many regrettable mistakes. People were probably uncomfortable to be around me, but I've always been too much of a brat to care or apologize. So what do I do? I run.
I'm so good at ghosting on people, I ghosted on myself, ignoring my own mental health. People say I'm confident, but my sun is in Gemini, my moon in Virgo & mars in Aries aka I have zero control, and I literally do not care. I stay unbothered & will go full '07 Britney when I'm being disrespected or if the wind is blowing at me the wrong way.
Fun Fact: I actually cared. A lot.
I overcompensated and was in a lot of pain. There were a series of events before my decision to lock up that petty princess and hide the key. It was time to stop running. So what did I do? I moved to China. I know. What's more traumatizing than leaving your emotional support group, and uprooting your entire life to another country?
It reaffirmed that I could leave people and possessions in the past, but not myself. I've learned to meditate, and find acceptance in and accountability for my mind, body, and responsibilities. I've finally stopped running from myself, to learn control. I've reduced my mental breakdowns to a solid 25%. I don't wonder why certain people don't like me anymore. What you think of me is a reflection of you because I'm phenomenal. Whether you're here for my growth or you're not, I still respect you. I hope everyone embraces their past, present, and future to find a giant glow inside that no one can remove.
With everything that has been going on in our social & political climate, we must be present & observe, not only our surroundings, but within. We should have the courage to stand up for our morals, & have integrity with every action. These are the values that Tiger Eye imbues. Follow them & let warmth and radiance fill your spirit. It's a crazy & disrespectful world. Look out for one another to make it less so.
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